i was in hell yesterday... i lost my mobile phone that early morning... wow! what a great way to start the day! smart huh?! i think 'twas meant to happen.. maybe something great or something better will happen (a new phone perhaps? hehe...) it should've given me a little warning... hehe... why am i even askin for a freakin warning?! it was my freakin fault! goodness.. is there any remedy out there for a short-term memory loss? cuz i badly need it... geez... it's like a part of my life was taken juz like that.. in juz one blink of the eyes, all is lost.. all has changed... like i've been deprived from the social world... but i still managed to smile and laugh at the situation throughout the day... cuz can't do anything bout it but to juz accept it and move on...(i sounded like as if i've lost a guy... hehe) so now my goal is to buy a new phone! ;p see? how fast i've recovered from the tradegy? hehe... ;p you know? thank god! for computers! there's still email! hooray! ;p i can still communicate with the world... hehe... oh, before i forget, i met up wit my ex 2 freakin weeks ago... and i was surprised that he's still hot! hehe... he had a new DO... not bad! not bad at all! ;p he's looks hot wit his new hair... but that was the only thing changed... he's still the old sweet-talkin-unsincere-two-faced guy that i know... he was tryin to get back wit me which i declined... i told him that i'm still not ready but that i still love him... so, he's cool wit that... oh and this chinese guy that i've been dating for the last couple of weeks, i'm kinda avoiding him... it's not that i don't like him no more... it's juz that i have this thing... me and one of my friends actually made a bet (but nothin involved) that what i'm feelin for this guy will last only a month... and so it did... i'm startin to get tired of him... i juz want us to be friends.. that's it and that's all there is to it... my friend apple confessed that she knows something bout why that chinese guy really is into me.. so she told me that the reason why he really likes me is that he can see in me his ex... not physically of course... duh?! but almost my whole personality... you see, almost! but not everythin.. i mean not really everythin.. that sets us differently.. meaning, the gurl agreed to have a relationship wit him which i doubtly would happen... hehe... and besides, i'm a player (self-confessed) and i don't go for guys like him (physically).... so, what's the use of dating him right? oh and another one, the guy whom i've been droolin over, he's not the guy whom i expected him to be... i have already talked to him and his his personality's kinda weak.. or maybe his juz hiding something.. probably another kind of personality... i can't guess or predict what's on his cute head of his... i admit, from all of the guys i've dated and met, he's the most difficult one to psychologize... seriously... i'm havin a hard time analyzing him... but i'll get to that somehow... ;p geez.... i dunno when this game will end..but i hope sooooon....... ;p

believe it or not, i got mesmerized by this guy yesterday.... he's like
the perfect guy.... the guy whom every gurl wants to take home and
introduce to their folks... ;p he's sooo cute and sooo charming that i
can't take him off my mind... as far as i can remember, the last time
that i was so caught up wit a guy was 3yrs ago... but he ain't
worthy... so here's what happened yesterday.. i went to watch an
integration... to my surprise, i saw him checkin me out... so checked
him out too... hehe... we're starin at each other like crazy.... but he
didn't do anything... i didn't do nothin too... we juz stared at each
other everytime there's a chance... here's the low down... my friend
told me that he's nice and a gentleman... well, that's something... i
dunno the rest but i wana find out... ;p haha... ;p there's something
in him that i also felt bout the guy 3yrs. ago.... but i'm
thinkin, what if it's the same thing as the rest of the guys? would it
also be a game? would i be playin again? these questions keep poppin to
my head.... and can't seem to concentrate on what i'm doin... this
can't be!!! but we'll still see what's gona happen.... this probably
ain't a game or is it?

geez.... how come everytime afternoon falls, it rains?! what's up wit that u bad weather?! hehe... oh! i juz uploaded some new pics in my other accounts... so buzz-ER! check it out! ;p i was at the shop of my FWB yesterday... and i met up wit my friend(the totally-hot-singer-chick-eccentric-who-don't-care-what-other-
people-think-that-they-should-juz-die-cuz-their-life-is-totally-
screwed-up friend) whom i haven't seen since my debut.... ;p hehe... ;p we talked bout alot of shit that have been goin on wit us... ;p hehe...pretty cool... we sort of have the same perception on everything when it comes to u know what.... ;p hehe.... ;p we probably gona hook up again sometime cuz we have a plan... ;p don't mess wit us! ;p so screw all those fuckin A-holes that can't do anythin bout their fucked up borin lives... again reminder, don't mess wit us! ;p hehehe.....

i'm f*@!%$ utterly bored.... think i'ma die of boredom... this heat is killin me.... earlier, can't wait to get out of my class cuz the professor is so boring... i almost fell asleep... seriously... then it fuckin rained.... shocks... i don't even wana come back when i went out.... anyhow, i'm havin thoughts of the current guy i'm dating... it seems that his friends is pressuring me to be wit him... okei i admit it's flattering and at least i know his friends like me... but the fact of havin a relationship, is a no no.... really can't seem to see myself bein wit him for long time... and i'm havin second thoughts wit my ex... i realized that i still fuckin like him after what happened between us... although we're still friends... but still.... oh well....

haha!!! i'm back!!! i've been busy for the last couple of weeks.... since i went back, i've been partyin and been busy wit school... can u believe it?! i am actually comin to school since it started and not a single late nor absent... ;p hahaha... ;p i dunno what happened, but LA has changed me alot... i mean really changed... ;p i'm on time now and i lost weight! ;p hahaha... ;p that was the best part... ;p but the worst part of it, when i met up wit my homeboy, he said that i became a biAtch... ;p (not literally) hehe... ;p i became more confident and doesn't care what others say or think bout me... ;p the hell i care... i don't give a shit on what they say... as long as i know what i'm doin (limitations and all...) and what i wana do... ;p cuz u know how people are in the PH. they have this obsession on judging people.. (which i despise) who doesn't?! eh?! but in LA, people don't care on other's businesses... cuz they have their own business to take care of... ;p am i right?! and besides, i'm not gonna grow if i keep on minding what they think of me... i know what's best for me so they should just bug off! it's my life... my choice... ;p anyhow,i'm currently dating this guy whom really doesn't fit on the physical description on what i want in a guy... ;p hehe... but he's cute for a chinese... i'm just not-so-attracted-to-chinky-eyed fellas... ;p dunno why... but i guess that changed cuz of his personality.... we really get along easily and i got along easily to all of his friends even if we sometimes go out and i'm physically different from them... cuz they're all chinese... my homeboy buzzer said that that's a sign of maturity... that i just don't look at the physical appearance but more on the personality... well, i guess that's pretty much all true... but still "no commitments please!".... still can't imagine myself goin out wit just one guy... i want to meet more and at least let me get tired first of my singlehood... ;p and then by that time i can now say that i'm ready.. ;p but for now, "no thanks".... ;p

partee!!!!!!!!!!! ;p hahahahaha.... ;p i'ma go to this party on sunday at a club... dunno where... my cousin's gonna bring me there... u know why sunday? cuz sunday is memorial day so that means monday is a rest day.... ;p hehehe... ;p i've finally talked with my friend mervin who's also here... but his kinda far... his in san diego... darn! but i might hook up wit him on tuesday... i told him that i'll do my best to go there cuz he'll be leavin on the 4th of june... besides, haven't been in san diego anyway.... so... oh and the funny thing was, he's 2 gona be 2 weeks late for his class... ;p hahaha... ;p hmm.... whatelse... i juz woke up... hehe... oh, and my friend gerald called me up yesterday... not much... anyway, i'm not done shoppin yet! can u believe that??? geez.... ;p hehehe... ;p i miss all mah friends back home... ;p i told myself that when i get back home, the first thing that i'll do is to go out and partee!!!!! ;p boy how i've missed those parties! it's also fun here but it's different... not like the parties that i've been to before... and u always have to bring wit u ur I.D. or else they won't let u in... geez!! but there are wild parties in here... it's juz that i can't be in it... cuz it's the 21 and above parties... but it's all good... as long as there are cute boyz around me i'm good... ;p hehehe... ;p [(singing..) lala-lala-la warm it up lala-lala-la the boyz are waitin...] hahaha... ;p damn right! ;p

hey... ;p juz got back from orange county.... i stayed there for a few days at the place of katrina's aunt... we went to knott's berry farm... and i rode all of the rides!!! ahahaha.... brave me! ;p even though my heart pounded like i could get a heart a attack any moment, i said what the heck! i'm juz gona be here once! so i rode em' all!!!! hahaha!!!! ;p and then last saturday before i went to orange county, we went to six flags! juz had 3 rides cuz of that freakin line!!!! i hate it! u gotta wait freakin 3-4 hours juz to be at a 2-3 minute ride! but damn! 'twas worth it! and guess ww went bungy jumpin! but of course u have to pay extra 20 bucks.... but man! 'twas worth it!!! we we're like 153ft. high! then u get the freakin time of your life... ;p i was like flyin!!!!! ;p what a shocker! but i told my cuz i would definitely goin back next year cuz i'ma ride them all!!! then next week we gona go swimmin at six flags cuz we got free tickets... ;p there's a like a swimmin park right next to it called hurricane harbor! shocks! ;p i'm pretty much excited and also we gona go to vegas next week! hahaha!!! ;p oh and i went to universal studios the other day... ;p pretty cool! and the most oddest thing that happened, i ran into a friend from san beda! geez! what a small world! hehehe! ;p he like asked for my number.... anyway, whatever! ;p and i extended my vacation again... ;p hehe... ;p be goin back home on the 7th of june! ;p sooooo!!!! to all of my friends!!!!! i'll see u guyz!!!!!!!! soooooooooooon!!!!!!!!!!! ;p