me and my thoughts

2004-08-08T01:13:00.000-07:00

i was in hell yesterday... i lost my mobile phone that early morning... wow! what a great way to start the day! smart huh?! i think 'twas meant to happen.. maybe something great or something better will happen (a new phone perhaps? hehe...) it should've given me a little warning... hehe... why am i even askin for a freakin warning?! it was my freakin fault! goodness.. is there any remedy out there for a short-term memory loss? cuz i badly need it... geez... it's like a part of my life was taken juz like that.. in juz one blink of the eyes, all is lost.. all has changed... like i've been deprived from the social world... but i still managed to smile and laugh at the situation throughout the day... cuz can't do anything bout it but to juz accept it and move on...(i sounded like as if i've lost a guy... hehe) so now my goal is to buy a new phone! ;p see? how fast i've recovered from the tradegy? hehe... ;p you know? thank god! for computers! there's still email! hooray! ;p i can still communicate with the world... hehe... oh, before i forget, i met up wit my ex 2 freakin weeks ago... and i was surprised that he's still hot! hehe... he had a new DO... not bad! not bad at all! ;p he's looks hot wit his new hair... but that was the only thing changed... he's still the old sweet-talkin-unsincere-two-faced guy that i know... he was tryin to get back wit me which i declined... i told him that i'm still not ready but that i still love him... so, he's cool wit that... oh and this chinese guy that i've been dating for the last couple of weeks, i'm kinda avoiding him... it's not that i don't like him no more... it's juz that i have this thing... me and one of my friends actually made a bet (but nothin involved) that what i'm feelin for this guy will last only a month... and so it did... i'm startin to get tired of him... i juz want us to be friends.. that's it and that's all there is to it... my friend apple confessed that she knows something bout why that chinese guy really is into me.. so she told me that the reason why he really likes me is that he can see in me his ex... not physically of course... duh?! but almost my whole personality... you see, almost! but not everythin.. i mean not really everythin.. that sets us differently.. meaning, the gurl agreed to have a relationship wit him which i doubtly would happen... hehe... and besides, i'm a player (self-confessed) and i don't go for guys like him (physically).... so, what's the use of dating him right? oh and another one, the guy whom i've been droolin over, he's not the guy whom i expected him to be... i have already talked to him and his his personality's kinda weak.. or maybe his juz hiding something.. probably another kind of personality... i can't guess or predict what's on his cute head of his... i admit, from all of the guys i've dated and met, he's the most difficult one to psychologize... seriously... i'm havin a hard time analyzing him... but i'll get to that somehow... ;p geez.... i dunno when this game will end..but i hope sooooon....... ;p

2004-07-17T02:27:00.000-07:00

believe it or not, i got mesmerized by this guy yesterday.... he's like
the perfect guy.... the guy whom every gurl wants to take home and
introduce to their folks... ;p he's sooo cute and sooo charming that i
can't take him off my mind... as far as i can remember, the last time
that i was so caught up wit a guy was 3yrs ago... but he ain't
worthy... so here's what happened yesterday.. i went to watch an
integration... to my surprise, i saw him checkin me out... so checked
him out too... hehe... we're starin at each other like crazy.... but he
didn't do anything... i didn't do nothin too... we juz stared at each
other everytime there's a chance... here's the low down... my friend
told me that he's nice and a gentleman... well, that's something... i
dunno the rest but i wana find out... ;p haha... ;p there's something
in him that i also felt bout the guy 3yrs. ago.... but i'm
thinkin, what if it's the same thing as the rest of the guys? would it
also be a game? would i be playin again? these questions keep poppin to
my head.... and can't seem to concentrate on what i'm doin... this
can't be!!! but we'll still see what's gona happen.... this probably
ain't a game or is it?

2004-07-15T02:39:00.000-07:00

geez.... how come everytime afternoon falls, it rains?! what's up wit that u bad weather?! hehe... oh! i juz uploaded some new pics in my other accounts... so buzz-ER! check it out! ;p i was at the shop of my FWB yesterday... and i met up wit my friend(the totally-hot-singer-chick-eccentric-who-don't-care-what-other-
people-think-that-they-should-juz-die-cuz-their-life-is-totally-
screwed-up friend) whom i haven't seen since my debut.... ;p hehe... ;p we talked bout alot of shit that have been goin on wit us... ;p hehe...pretty cool... we sort of have the same perception on everything when it comes to u know what.... ;p hehe.... ;p we probably gona hook up again sometime cuz we have a plan... ;p don't mess wit us! ;p so screw all those fuckin A-holes that can't do anythin bout their fucked up borin lives... again reminder, don't mess wit us! ;p hehehe.....

2004-07-13T01:49:00.000-07:00

i'm f*@!%$ utterly bored.... think i'ma die of boredom... this heat is killin me.... earlier, can't wait to get out of my class cuz the professor is so boring... i almost fell asleep... seriously... then it fuckin rained.... shocks... i don't even wana come back when i went out.... anyhow, i'm havin thoughts of the current guy i'm dating... it seems that his friends is pressuring me to be wit him... okei i admit it's flattering and at least i know his friends like me... but the fact of havin a relationship, is a no no.... really can't seem to see myself bein wit him for long time... and i'm havin second thoughts wit my ex... i realized that i still fuckin like him after what happened between us... although we're still friends... but still.... oh well....

2004-07-07T01:23:00.001-07:00

haha!!! i'm back!!! i've been busy for the last couple of weeks.... since i went back, i've been partyin and been busy wit school... can u believe it?! i am actually comin to school since it started and not a single late nor absent... ;p hahaha... ;p i dunno what happened, but LA has changed me alot... i mean really changed... ;p i'm on time now and i lost weight! ;p hahaha... ;p that was the best part... ;p but the worst part of it, when i met up wit my homeboy, he said that i became a biAtch... ;p (not literally) hehe... ;p i became more confident and doesn't care what others say or think bout me... ;p the hell i care... i don't give a shit on what they say... as long as i know what i'm doin (limitations and all...) and what i wana do... ;p cuz u know how people are in the PH. they have this obsession on judging people.. (which i despise) who doesn't?! eh?! but in LA, people don't care on other's businesses... cuz they have their own business to take care of... ;p am i right?! and besides, i'm not gonna grow if i keep on minding what they think of me... i know what's best for me so they should just bug off! it's my life... my choice... ;p anyhow,i'm currently dating this guy whom really doesn't fit on the physical description on what i want in a guy... ;p hehe... but he's cute for a chinese... i'm just not-so-attracted-to-chinky-eyed fellas... ;p dunno why... but i guess that changed cuz of his personality.... we really get along easily and i got along easily to all of his friends even if we sometimes go out and i'm physically different from them... cuz they're all chinese... my homeboy buzzer said that that's a sign of maturity... that i just don't look at the physical appearance but more on the personality... well, i guess that's pretty much all true... but still "no commitments please!".... still can't imagine myself goin out wit just one guy... i want to meet more and at least let me get tired first of my singlehood... ;p and then by that time i can now say that i'm ready.. ;p but for now, "no thanks".... ;p

2004-05-27T10:23:00.000-07:00

partee!!!!!!!!!!! ;p hahahahaha.... ;p i'ma go to this party on sunday at a club... dunno where... my cousin's gonna bring me there... u know why sunday? cuz sunday is memorial day so that means monday is a rest day.... ;p hehehe... ;p i've finally talked with my friend mervin who's also here... but his kinda far... his in san diego... darn! but i might hook up wit him on tuesday... i told him that i'll do my best to go there cuz he'll be leavin on the 4th of june... besides, haven't been in san diego anyway.... so... oh and the funny thing was, he's 2 gona be 2 weeks late for his class... ;p hahaha... ;p hmm.... whatelse... i juz woke up... hehe... oh, and my friend gerald called me up yesterday... not much... anyway, i'm not done shoppin yet! can u believe that??? geez.... ;p hehehe... ;p i miss all mah friends back home... ;p i told myself that when i get back home, the first thing that i'll do is to go out and partee!!!!! ;p boy how i've missed those parties! it's also fun here but it's different... not like the parties that i've been to before... and u always have to bring wit u ur I.D. or else they won't let u in... geez!! but there are wild parties in here... it's juz that i can't be in it... cuz it's the 21 and above parties... but it's all good... as long as there are cute boyz around me i'm good... ;p hehehe... ;p [(singing..) lala-lala-la warm it up lala-lala-la the boyz are waitin...] hahaha... ;p damn right! ;p

2004-05-26T13:51:00.000-07:00

hey... ;p juz got back from orange county.... i stayed there for a few days at the place of katrina's aunt... we went to knott's berry farm... and i rode all of the rides!!! ahahaha.... brave me! ;p even though my heart pounded like i could get a heart a attack any moment, i said what the heck! i'm juz gona be here once! so i rode em' all!!!! hahaha!!!! ;p and then last saturday before i went to orange county, we went to six flags! juz had 3 rides cuz of that freakin line!!!! i hate it! u gotta wait freakin 3-4 hours juz to be at a 2-3 minute ride! but damn! 'twas worth it! and guess ww went bungy jumpin! but of course u have to pay extra 20 bucks.... but man! 'twas worth it!!! we we're like 153ft. high! then u get the freakin time of your life... ;p i was like flyin!!!!! ;p what a shocker! but i told my cuz i would definitely goin back next year cuz i'ma ride them all!!! then next week we gona go swimmin at six flags cuz we got free tickets... ;p there's a like a swimmin park right next to it called hurricane harbor! shocks! ;p i'm pretty much excited and also we gona go to vegas next week! hahaha!!! ;p oh and i went to universal studios the other day... ;p pretty cool! and the most oddest thing that happened, i ran into a friend from san beda! geez! what a small world! hehehe! ;p he like asked for my number.... anyway, whatever! ;p and i extended my vacation again... ;p hehe... ;p be goin back home on the 7th of june! ;p sooooo!!!! to all of my friends!!!!! i'll see u guyz!!!!!!!! soooooooooooon!!!!!!!!!!! ;p

2004-05-18T15:02:00.000-07:00

wahahaha!!! ;p i finally saw kill bill 2 last night!!! ;p ahahahaha!!!! ;p u know why??!! cuz i was on a date... ;p hahahaha... ;p cute guy... he's costa rican... ;p anyhow, we played pool and i beat his ass! can u imagine???? 7-1 shocks!!! ;p hehehe... ;p and i already saw van helsing last week... ;p not bad... ;p i like kill bill vol.1 than the vol.2... vol.1 is more action packed than the 2 but the vol. 2 wasn't that bad... 'twas okei... ;p u want me to tell thew story????!!! here it goes..... they finally showed the face of bill and the rest u juz have to see for urself! ahahahaha... ;p oh, and i'm goin to six flags this saturday! god!!! can't wait i'm soooooo excited!!!! ;p i can finally ride the superman and the rest of the thrillin rides!!! ;p hahahahahahahahahah!!!!!! be envy! ;p that's all i can say!!! ;p

2004-05-10T09:33:00.000-07:00

shocks... ;p hehehe.... juz woke up... i'm here at my aunt's place... talk about heat wave.. it's really hot in here in L.A. feel like i'm gona get a burn... hahaha.... and to think that when i was in the Phil. i was sorta allergic to sun... not really but i juz feel like my skin's not used to the uv rays anymore... coz i'm nocturnal... anyways, talk about cute boys! ;p lots of 'em.... hehehe... i'm havin so much fun... ;p we watched a movie for free at universal studios cinema! hahaha... we got connections again... my sophie's cousin ( my cousin's gurl) is a supervisor at the cinema so we get to watch it for free... can u imagine? ;p like wwe juz picked any movie and we get in free... ;p and also we were supposed to watch van helsing but then my aunt called us to go home cuz nobody's gona open the door for us... so, we watched mean gurls instead... but we're still gona see it... ha! kill bill vol. II is showin right now... ;p i have to see kill bill or else i'ma die!!! hehehe... ;p
we goin to chinatown taday to check out some stuff... ;p we went to the mall in moreno valley yesterday and bought lots of stuff... ;p hehehe.. ;p in short i went shoppin... ;p katrina texted me to go home and that she misses me... ;p hahaha... ;p i said i'll be home soon... ;p besides, don't wana go home yet... ;p still havin fun... ;p actually, don't wana go home anymore.. wana stay here for good... ;p if only my parents would allow me.... hmm.... oh, and i'm enjoyin boy hunting... ;p cuz like everybody's checkin out everybody... ;p so cool... ;p sorta like in the Phil. u get to be checked out a lot... ;p hehehe... (i sound so conceited... ;p) well, i have to admit, i'm kinda conceited... hehehe... all of my friends are conceited too... hahaha... no exemption... ;p hehehe... ;p i miss my friends already... ;p oh, we went clubbin last friday (can't help it!;p i'm a party girl..) at the music box in hollywood boulevard... man! check out the club... it's so big compare to the clubs in the Phil. i was with my cousin, his gurl (who is also my cousin now since she got pregnant) and a gurl friend of my cousins... we all get along pretty well... cuz they're not bitchy and all that... ;p and plus they know around here everywhere... ;p hehehe... they practically hangout everywhere but most of the time they hangout at universal studios citywalk.. there are cinemas and shops there... cool place... ;p plus lotsa cute guys... but there are more cute guys in moreno valley than in L.A. like wherever u look thre is a cute guy.. ;p hehe... ;p toodles! ;p

2004-04-28T00:22:00.000-07:00

April 1, 2004 - Friday - 11:30pm

Whoa… ;p been a while since I last posted here… ;p been busy partying and stuff… ;p I went to the FHM party last Tuesday… really cool… ;p I've seen lots of cute guys… ;p hehehe… ;p my newly found friend juz invited me to go to that party…;p it's strictly for invites only… good thing he worked there before so he has connections to the event.. ;p hahaha…;p my friend buzz is so freakinly envy… ;p haha… he also wanted to go but then I can't invite him cuz I was juz invited… ;p hahaha.. ;p damn pictures… ;p we're too far and can't get any closer cuz of the guyz in front… ;p buzz was right… 'twas like a a mush pit… like all the guyz there were waitin, droolin and they looked like dogs who needed a good patting over whoever gurl is at the stage… damn… ;p didn't get any good pics… ;p kinda blurred… darn… anyhow, 'twas fun… ;p oh, and the funny thing was when we arrived, a guy who was a co-worker of my friend and who was also working for FHM asked me if he could take a pic of me for the summit… ;p hahaha… I feel like I looked silly when he took a pic of me… cuz I was so conscious… how can't u be?! like everybody around us was looking… ;p hahaha…. But 'twas all good… ;p in that moment, I felt like I was a celebrity… ;p hahahaha… we went home around 1:00am… cuz the party ended early… ;p hahaha… hmmm…. Whatelse….. haven't seen my guy since Monday… I kinda miss him… ;p we might hook up probably this week… he's comin over… whatelse… hmmmmm….. it's sooooooo freakin hot!!! ;p I'm like stuck in the sauna… geeez…. Holy week is comin and I'll be leavin soon for LA… augh…. I don't wana leave actually.. cuz I'll be missin half of all the parties this vacation… :'( huhuhuhu….. but it's all good cuz I'ma go shoppin and boy hunting over there… hahaha… ;p

April 13, 2004 - Tuesday - 9:15pm

Again, another borin day for me… me and my friends went on a joyride last night… ;p hahaha… when I got off the phone… one of my best buds who was a guy called me up and was askin if I wanted to go strollin… so me, feelin so bored all day, didn't think twice, willingly joined him.. so he picked me up around 11:30pm and we picked up another friend juz around the corner and head off to roxas… we we're juz drivin and can't decide where to go… we went around PICC and drove around the creepy theater… 'twas really scary cuz the lights were off and there are no other buildings beside it… i got goosebumps when we went around.. like there's something or someone in that theater that scared are three asses off… ;p yikes!;p anyway, so again after that we can't decide again where to go so we picked up another friend and drove to timog… they we're trippin off some couple by shouting out of the window… hahaha… ;p it was so funny… ;p good thing the couple didn't have a car cuz if they did, we might have gotten into trouble that's for sure… ;p so then we were drivin around again can't decide where to go… finally my friend suggested that we go to tagaytay juz for fun… ;p my best bud thought that we were juz trippin to go to tagaytay… but then he decided not to… he was bein a killer joy for that moment… geez…. he said to juz plan it on another day… but it's all good.. and then we all went home around 1:30am… cool trip eh? ;p

April 14, 2004 - Wednesday - 8:30pm

Shit! it have my period and I hate it… who gurl doesn't?!?… it feels so icky and uncomfortable… I'm havin my moodswings again.. I guess cuz of my darn period… anyway, we we're supposed to play badminton today but then I juz don't feel like playin… ;p hehehe… I called buzzer… we were juz talking about our other friends and stuff we can do for the day… turns out that we don't have a progressive thing to do for the day… so we talked and talked about what is happening with our other friends… I told him that I already read charsa's blog… 'twas very interesting..;p damn! She really has a lot to say… very wild imagination… ;p we admired her writing ability… ;p man! She can really write… ;p we thought that she can be a very good columnist someday… ;p her blog became our topic… and there it seems that she was pretty bored with her relationship right now… well, I hope she is… she deserve someone better… I mean better…. ;p she should juz leave her no-good-lazy-lame-ass-boyfriend and find someone who can level up her standards… ;p geez… ;p well, who could blame her… cupid really struck her bad… ;p in which here we come to the next topic… my friend Katrina.. ;p the problem is that she accidentally fell in love with the guy from her school which she never intended to be involve with… now, she's sorta obsessed with the guy…. Geez…. People do for love… I admit, I was once struck bad by cupid which is stupid… ;p bad cupid!;p whoa! That rhymes… ;p hehehe… but now I've learned… I can also play their game… ;p hahaha… ;p it's fun to play but not too much.. too much of everything is bad… u might get what you've asked for… ;p you juz need to learn to balance everything at the right time… ;p but it's hard to keep things running smoothly… ;p oh well, it's juz like that… that's life… ;p